Husband won't have sex with me, but makes sure he gets his...

I'm hormonal right now, so I'm sure I'm just blowing things out of proportion, I'm sorry. But I need to vent. My husband wont come near me when I'm on my period, but expects a blowjob every night to every other night. I gave him a blowjob, which I don't like doing, all of the saliva and cum togegher has always grossed me out, but I do it, because I love him. Well, I'm really horny so i beg him to atleast kiss me and talk dirty while I finger myself. No he won't. "It's disguisting" but he can stay on Facebook all night and ignore me while I roll over and cry.