Immature behavior

I met someone online last year. He was a 40 something divorcee with 2 grown daughters and 4 grandsons . he seemed really genuine and we both wanted similar things in life. We would message all day . and talk on the phone at night every night before bed. We hit it off ..or so I thought. After about a month we decided to meet up for the first time.

The evening of our date , he picked me up and we are dinner at my favorite restaurant . just like on the phone ..we got along really well and there was an attraction between us. After dinner we went to a bar near where I live . we sat there had a few drinks and told each other's stories and laughed for hours . we had already decided earlier that we would get a room together. Anyhow . I'm not a big drinker. But I can and have on previous occasions not only held my liquor but can honestly say I've only blacked out once. And that was the very first time I ever took a drink .

So there we were . at that point I had 4 mixed drinks . far from being strong. So we decide to go leave to go to the room . I was clearly drunk when he saw me fall in the bar parking lot. From that moment on I only remember bits and pieces. Long story short I wake up at 3 am naked from the waist down and I can only remember a flash of memory. I don't know what he did to me. nothing! Just a vague memory of him hovering by my knees. Idont know how I feel about this . I was drunk clearly .in one hand we did make plans and got a room with the intention of sex. But on the other hand ..I was belligerent drunk. And I don't think that a man should want to. Be with a drunk passed out chick kinda disrepectful to him and get. Then there is also the question of why did I black out on 4 mixed drinks. They barely had alcohol. Certainly not enough to do as much damage as making me black out.