Reevaluating my LDR

So my BF of 10 months and I are in a LDR. I've gone to visit him 3 times already and it's been amazing. We talk and text every single day. I FaceTime him in the morning when he's on the overnight shifts. This week I've felt him a little distant. Very short. I had my cards read and it came out that he's seeing someone and he's been intimate. I flipped out and called him. I asked him ABandC. Mind you i also just got my period so my hormones are all crazed. He started flipping out that he's stressed over money, he's job, and me. I went ape sh!t bc he blamed me for being stressed. I said how could u blame me and he said bc I F/in miss you. I can't be with you, I can at hold you, or just simply see you in person. I curated out crying bc I feel the same way and then some. Long story short, I miss him and wonder whether or not this is worth doing. We don't have a next visit day, I always go to him bc of work and his son and I don't want him to have to rely on his stepdaughter to watch his son. We have a "plan" of going away together for my birthday for a few days, but that's not until October. He was suppose to come see me for the weekend in July but bc of work, he's not going to be able to come. I don't have the money to go see him now either and everything is expensive. I feel like giving up sometimes but leaving is just so hard bc I know we can have a wonderful life together. I guess I'm scared bc I've been hurt (am divorced) and I don't want to get hurt again and fail at yet another relationship😔 I dk what to do or how to wrap my head around this whole LDR. We've spoken about me moving in with him in a couple of years after I finish up some stuff here but I dk if I'm going to be able to be apart from him and having to wait 2 more years before a permanent move, makes me even more sad and hopeless😪 And he's never told me he's loved me. He says he likes me very much ans he's "getting there" in loving me but he's scared of the word. I told him I loved him already and it doesn't fade him.