Teenage years *RANT*

I am currently 16 and i'm having a hard time being a teenager. I took the car in April at four in the morning and got caught and I got caught with a boy in my room at three in the morning (we weren't doing anything) on monday. Me and my mom have never had a really good relationship and my dad isn't around. I see my friends doing stuff like having their boyfriends come over and joy riding all during the night and it makes me want to do it and since my mom is so strict I sneak and do the same thing. I've thought about suicide, running away, doing drugs just about everything to get away from my mother and this family or at least to shut them out. I have two more years left in high school. I could graduate my junior year (this upcoming year) but she keeps saying i'm not mature enough. She's not realizing that i'm a teenage. I have to make mistakes so i can learn and grow. Her sheltering me just makes me want to rebel more. She barely even knows me. She's gone all day. She sees me for three hours at the most everyday. I have a brother who is 26 who is in prison for murder and a 23 year old sister who lives with us, doesn't go to school, quit her job when she found out she was pregnant, and now has a 5th month old baby. She JUST started working again and her baby dad doesn't work at all. I don't deserve this life. I make good grades i'm respectful have manners and everything else. My mother feels as though i'm such a problem for her. She's 50 raising a 16 year old. She always comparing me to herself when she was my age and other people my age that she knows of. I don't ask for much. I don't even ask her for money! All i want is my license a car and a job and she doesn't even want me to work. All they do is try to bring me down. My sister even told me that i'm going to be stuck at home just like her going to community college. That's not what i want for myself and that's damn sure not what i deserve. My mother just feels as thought i'm such a bad person and such a bad child. My brother lost his virginity at 12 to a 15 year old and had girls in and out of her house. My sister was a freak when she was my age. She even caught STD's and she frequently had boys in her room because i caught her on multiple occasions but i didn't tell because i was trying to be a good little sister. She even sent nudes! It's crazy because she did all of this yet when i do something she acts like i'm so stupid and i'm the worse person in the world. Also, the boy i had over was 18 and we were very good friends and we both liked eachother. when my mother asked how old he was and he said 18 she said he could go to jail. #1 he's only two years older than me so he wouldn't go to jail and #2 my sister was 15 and her baby's daddy was 18 making 19. So how could she be so hypocritical to send my boy to jail when she didn't do anything to my sister. My sister has a horrible attitude. She curses my mom out and calls her names and when she was 16 she moved out and went lived with my grandma. Yet i'm always so rude and mean and disrespectful. There's a lot more and i would love some advice and to hear your comments or you could ask for my email or my cell phone # if your someone who i can counsel with....