Miscarriage twice 😪

I'm 42. I've had a blighted ovum last year and this year a very painful miscarriage. I think the man upstairs thinks I'm crazy for trying. I think I have to come to terms that my egg quality is not as great as before. I do count my blessings I have a smart 4 yr old who pains me when I can't give him a sibling. Not going to do IVF.  To expensive and don't want the stress on our marriage. I'm just asking for women our age to send lots of love and light for a positive outcome .🙏🏻🙌🏻😘