Horrible and scary birth!!!

I was admitted in the hospital on April 3rd because they wanted to induce me! They gave me cervidil at 5pm and was going to start me on pitocin at 7:30 am on the 4th. In the morning they noticed thAt the cervidil did not work but decided to go ahead and start the pitocin by this time it was almost 9am!! I was on pitocin for over 24hours. During this time I was only dialated 1cm. They put a balloon in me and that really hurt! One of the obgyns yelled at me told me that it was not viable for me to have a c-section and I had to dilate. She had her arm all the way in me and I was crying in a lot of pain. She was rough and her attitude was hateful! She jumped me up to 28ml of pitocin.. I went from being dilated from a 1 to a 3 back to a 1 then a 2 then barely a Fingertip!!! I was having off the chart contractions and did not feel them at all! The next morning a different on gun came in and told me that she was scheduling me in for an emergency c section thAt I should have had the baby the day before by c section!!!!! I was so scared and I cried a lot!!! About 4 hours later after the c section I started to crash and my blood pressure was 52/48 and my heart rate plummeted to 46bpm!!!!! Somehow I pulled through and found out that not only did I almost die but I had to have a blood transfusion because I was hemorrhaging extremely bad!!! The size of softballs!!! I was let out of the hospital on the the 7th at around 8:30pm I had my daughter April 5th at 4:00pm she was 7lbs 11oz and 21inches long!!!! I was so horribly treated at the hospital and it was scary and life changing for me! She is 3 months old in 5 days and I am still healing!!!! I am not sure I want any other children I have been scarred pretty badly!