Breast feeding

I don't want this to sound gross or taboo or anyone think that I'm a weirdo, but I can't help having this thought cross my mind... I plan on breastfeeding my child when I get pregnant. And, well... My boyfriend sucks on my nipples a lot, and I love it. He sucks on my nipples while I touch myself and it helps me cum. When I breastfeed my child... What if it feels good when they suck on my nipple? What if I get pleasure out of it? I feel like a horrible person asking what if I would get sexual pleasure from my baby, but seriouSly