Set free

I've been a slave to ttc since February of this year. 
I've had my second consecutive miscarriage. 
This one didn't hurt as much as the first one.
I guess I felt more a sense of relief to know that something wrong and to be able to have the evidence I needed to finally be able to see a fertility doctor before tying again in the future
I threw out all the pregnancy tests, all the prenatal vitamins, all the baby books. 
No longer have to call and harass my OB for test results and hear them get an attitude because I'm calling. 
I'm able to breathe again, to actually enjoy making love to my husband without it being scheduled and routine. 
I feel a sense of freedom.