Im so confused

Ok so heres a massive situation.

I have a tendancy to fall for the rjght people at the wrong time. Ok so heres the story.

I went to a party a week ago (im of legal age to drink) and in an attempt to show how fearless i am to the hot host i drank 3/4 of a bottle of wine, 1/4 bottle of vodka 12 jelly shots and 2 beers. I was white girl wasted. But anyway. I practically get dragged to his room (he has a couch in it) so i could sleep it off and throw up in peace. ( this is about 10:30pm) so the hot guy sits with me rubs my back and holds my hair back. (He got dumped the week before and was still very fragile) after throwing up and accidentally falling off the couch he dicides taking me to the bed would be safer seeing as there are no tables around it for me to hit my head on. So i half walk half crawl to the bed with his assistance. And i start getting really sweaty so i ask him to help me take my pants off. Which he does. I then threw up a bit more. We ended up talking until 4 am. But around 2 he kissed me... and i know he was a drunk and i was sobering up (id thrown up and peed out all the alcohol) but I liked it. I cant stop thinking about it. And i feel like im overthinking but ugh just please somebody understand.