Tried of being the good girl

I got pregnant a week before I turned 21. I didn't have a party or anything. Had a baby shower in January.. Few days later my grandpa died in the hospital. Month later I had the baby. Csection because he was breech. I tried to be the best mom. Staying home all the time. Never missing bedtime. Didn't go out. Life was finally getting to where I was going out more then at 23 I learned I was pregnant again. I took care of our son up until a few hours I delivered. Husband had surgery in January. Son broke his arm and had surgery in February. And I gave birth to our daughter in March. Over 6,000 dollars in debt from medical bills. Still paying monthly for insurance. Husband racked up credit card debt. I'm now 24. I've never been to a bar, dance club, or anything. My husband goes to North Dakota, Colorado, Ohio, West Virginia, and New York. I don't go 20 miles from the house. I'm still always home for bedtime. I do every diaper change. I let dogs in and out, feed and water, and walk them. I do every bath, dinner, formula feed, and laundry. I mow the grass. Make appointments. Pay bills. All for what? Husband keeps saying he will take me to a bar or dance club. That was months ago. I feel like I'm going to be waiting and waiting then turn 40 and still not do anything I want. Last month I turned 24. This month marks 5 years of marriage. I've decided I'm giving up everything I wanted so my kids and apparently husband can have what they want.