Plz help with advice. Fighting on Bf's Bday

There's been a lot of stress lately. I might be pregnant (unplanned) and we're having a lot of financial issues. Last night my bf was being rude af to me. He wanted me to help him pick a hotel so he shows me them on his laptop and I wanted to scroll down to see but he swatted my hand away. So I said fine choose it yourself. Don't ask me to help and then fucking touch me like that. So we're watching TV and I eventually go to bed. He follows me and stands over me as I'm trying to sleep and tells me that we need to decide together and asking if I don't want to go anymore? I said really? And told him to let me sleep. So I wake up hours after we said we'd leave for his birthday trip today. He didn't set an alarm. So I guess we aren't doing anything today. I'm at a loss here. I don't think any of that was my responsibility. And now I feel at blame for just being here. How do we make up on his birthday? Was it my fault we didn't go?