The Sex Talk I'll Never Have

I'm 16 years old and I'm sexually active. It feels good to finally say that. I can only talk with my sister about my concerns or questions as she is very understanding. But then there's my mother. She's the type to harass or purposely make someone feel like crap when someone makes her angry or does an action against her word. Verbally, killing the spirit.. She's not a bad person, don't get me wrong, I love my mother. But if you make her upset enough, (which a sex talk would) there's no doubt in my mind since she's tried it before that she'll attempt to take away what matters most and strips me of whatever joys I have to make me feel as bad as she does when she's pissed off. I want to be open with her. But she's so thick skulled that it'd be pointless.. My sister is 23 and I know she can't even talk about sex with my mother to this day. I wish I could talk to my mom. I wish I could tell her things and ask her the questions that matter most about being active. I just want to be open with my mother.. I'm sexually active and I want to have the sex talk I'll never have.