Long read 😞 just needed to vent

It's been a rough long week. We found out at 20 weeks that I had a short cervix with funneling.. Approximately 2cm long. I was transferred to a high risk OBGYN and had another cervix check at 21 weeks to see it had shortened to 1.5 cms. They wanted to start me on progesterone capsules or gel but I'm severely allergic to peanuts and they both contain peanut oil 😞 at 22 weeks I began having more Braxton hick contractions so they decided to do another cervix check to see it was down to 1.2 cm in a week. They put me on bed rest and I was allowed to get up and go pee but go straight back to bed. I received my two steroid shots and first progesterone injection. After the two rounds of steroids and first progesterone shot I was NOT feeling good. I scheduled an appointment with my OBGYN to find I had a temperature of 101.4; she had me transferred by ambulance to the best hospital an hour away. They checked my cervix again to find it wasn't even a cm long anymore at only 23 weeks! They kept me in labor and delivery all night but the contractions were not concerning anymore so they have me in my own private room for the remainder of my pregnancy 😞 the neonatal doctor does not like the chances of my baby girl coming between 23-27 weeks. He wants me to make it until 28 weeks but knows it's nearly impossible. I'm very overwhelmed and depressed. I haven't stopped crying since they put me in the hospital, I don't sleep, it's been very hard on me and I must admit I'm very jealous of all you ladies that are further along because my only goal is to make it to 28 weeks but they know I cannot 😞😢😭😩