Feelings of not conceiving

So over the past few years I've been desperately trying to conceive! Like desperately! Like super desperately. I have pcos so I was put on provera which indeed started my period after not having one for like 6 months. I then took clomid and metformin. The metformin had me so sick i quit taking it. I timed my ovulation, I took ovulation test, charted my temps, check my cm, hell I even called a witch to cast a damn spell! Lmfao like it definitely has me slightly depressed. I'm 26 and running out of eggs. I've gone to the doctor and everything I'm slowly convincing myself my options are too adopt. Oh let me mention this....my period was due on the 18th of July. Of course it isn't here...I've had every symptom in the book...except a positive test. The more I type this the more I'm like fuck it...