Anxiety and depression :(

I've struggled with anxiety and depression since I was 16 years old. I am now 23 years old and 17w+4 pregnant. My baby's father does not care about the pregnancy or me and is always bringing me down. I've had 2 anxiety attacks today. I can't eat and I physically feel so sick. I know I need to leave but I'm terrified to do this on my own. I don't want to take medication for this. I feel so alone.