Touchy Topics: HELP.

Brittany
I'm not really sure how to start this specific discussion as I never thought I would have the need to. I'm not even sure I should be posting about this at all. But I'd rather have as much support as I can get than not... today, I'm 8 weeks and 6 days pregnant. The baby is as healthy as can be with 181 BPM and perfect growth; I couldn't ask for much more than that. But, prior to the thrill of seeing our baby on the ultrasound screen and seeing her (I think it'll be a girl) wiggling around and waving with her teeny tiny hand, I got some rather abrupt and emotional news... I've been diagnosed with HPV. 
You see when the PA stated this, as calmly and softly as she could, my world seemed to shatter. I felt disgusted with myself. It's never anyone's "fault" for contracting such a thing. And I'll never be able to track down exactly which partner, be it my husband or a past boyfriend, gave it to me. But it still left me feeling so violated and ashamed of myself. I'm afraid of posting about such a personal topic for the ridicule or disgust or whatever emotion might be thrown my way. But I need help. I'm not sure of what I should do. I've spoken with my husband and we cried. A lot. But I'm just afraid. The PA said that most women will be diagnosed with HPV at some point during their life- (80-95% of women)- and that most commonly, the body will dispel the infection of its own accord. But sometimes it can lead to genital warts (which I've never had or seen show up on me) or even Cervical Cancer. Which is what my husband and I are most afraid of. I just need advice. I need to know that I'm really not alone, even though I know I'm not and there are millions of other women struggling with the same bad news, I just feel so alone. Like I should just throw myself off a cliff. I need to know what I should do. I need success stories. I know it could have been a MUCH more severe diagnosis. And for that, I'm so happy and relieved and grateful and I don't have something worse. But it's still so nerve wrecking. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm so afraid. ANY sort of advice or support that can be offered is so very appreciated. 

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