Need to vent sorry

Okay so, my husband and I have been together for 4 years(1 married) 

Go ahead and judge me if you want after what i'm about to type here, tell me "that's why people like you should not have kids" etc

So my grandma owns a house and we (me my husband and 2 kids ) live in the garage, he has not worked since my daughter was born last april. (He got 2 jobs went for a week then quit) it's been over a month and a half and all he does is "look for jobs" on craigslist, play videos games, and smoke weed! We pay NO rent, & have food stamps. The only person I trust to watch my kids is my mom but now with 2 babies it's literally impossible for her to watch both my kids. She helps me a lot with my daughter while I watch my son. I really want to get a job but my grandma tells me then i'm going to be the one supporting my husband while he sits around and does nothing all day because he does not help watch our kids, he changes a diaper maybe 3 times a week, never holds them , watches them for 10 minuets then calls my mom and asks her to watch them. Also like I said, it's impossible for my mom to watch two kids. My grandma is 80 years old and I have no ither relatives here. My husbands parents work all day. It breaks my heart cause I want to provide for my kids and can't :( right now we have absolutely NO baby wipes. I have been wetting some of my old shirts and wiping my kids ass with them. My daughter has a pack of diapers my son only has 2 diapers left. My husband looked all over the house as if a pack of baby wipes was magically going to appear 😒 he tells me to ask my mom for money to buy baby wipes but my mom has no money because she buys my kids everything. Clothes, diapers, wipes etc. he says to ask for money to buy 1 pack until my mom gets "paid next week" um yeah how about his fat ass pays for his own kids shit. After that he went right back to playing video games I HATE asking people for money! Its hard to belive a man can just sit around not caring or feeling bad that his family is struggling. We bearly have food and when we want to buy from the store we find ourselves picking change to see how much we have which ain't shit. He claims he loves my kids and I but that's hard to believe. A few days ago I made him cry because I told him hes a lazy ass that needs to get  a damn job. Whats the point in living together if he does not a damn thing for us. Minus will be a single mom because thats how I feel like (and no im not bashing single moms) im just going to fill out applications and make his ass take care of his kids since he wants to be the woman of the house . He should of been born a woman since he doesnt want to be a man of the house . It just sucks because I only breastfeed and my son will have to drink formula. I feel like divorcing him but only reason I put up with this man is so my kids will have a father cause my dad wasnt around and it sucked even though i thankfully always had what i needed and more. I love him but I don't want to be living in a damn garage all my life I want a house like every mom does. This is seriously embarassing, i've seen teen parents doing way better . We dont have money or anything . How can he live knowing he has to ask others to provide for his kids and i'm not a gold digger but doesn't he feel bad when I say I like something and he can't get it for me ? So much for being a "husband". He always asks my mom for money and lies to his parents about having a job I was so close to telling his dad his son has been lying to him all this time . I have been finding myself selling my own things to be able to provide for my kids