Had a fight with husband

My husband always does this thing ..he play hits me and push me around . ..so times u push me if he wants to pass he don't say excuse .....i always tell him stop hitting me or pushing me

I always hit or push back i don't ever let him feel he has the upper hand

But today he hit me i hit him back and i got serious so i push his cup that had juice in it and u got mad and took the remote and throw it out the door . .plus throw down a bottle of water on the floor .

Because one i got mad and hit him with the remote i think and two throw some of his drink away

I am so feed up ....we are living with his mother don't have anywhere to go . ..i work but i got other responsibilities that I do not have enough to go rent .

And I think i may be pregnant .

I don't hit first he always hits first . ....i retaliate and hit back