Damn it af ugh

Af is showing after 7 days of nothing. Finally I'm able to cry but I feel bad for getting my bf's hopes up for nothing. I didn't want to believe I could be pregnant bc i just figured my mind was playing tricks on me and it was. Idk but now I'm sad bc we wanted this. I really wanted to get a positive after 7 days of being late. I hate this. I hate my period more now then I ever did and now I made him disappointed too with me. How can this be gods plan? I'm trying so hard to keep faith but I'm sorry I'm losing it