Need friendly advice.

I'm 30 my husband is 54 we have a son together and I have 2 girls that I'm fighting to get back.

We have been trying for one More baby for 2 years now with 2 misscarages and a lot of disappointment.

Is it normal to get servely depressed after another negative test and a late period? I also get so pissed at my husband that he didn't get me pregnant that I just want to slap him cry then have him hold me and tell me he's sorry and well keep trying. But I don't know how much more disappointment I can take.

Any insite would be greatly appreciated. Thank you