Missing my mom

I lost my mom suddenly in January. We were super close. It hurts all the time. I tend to be private and keep things to myself, but I am missing her so badly. My baby would have been her first grandchild. I can't watch the video of us revealing our pregnancy to her and my dad. A grandbaby was something she had always wanted. Now the doctor is telling me I may have to have a c-section due to the baby being big and my pelvic area being small. I'm so scared and nervous about the whole ordeal and just wish my mom could be here. She was my rock. My husband is incredible, don't get me wrong, but to me there will never be anyone like my mama. My MIL is mentally not there, so I am sorta on my own. I do have my sister, but she doesn't have any children so advice is limited :/

Anyone else dealing with the loss of a loved one?