happy/sad about being pregnant?? 😕

So I'm late in my period on Wednesday I'm going to Test to see if Iam pregnant me and my boyfriend have been talking about having a baby and since the day we met a year ago and recently got off bc 4 months when I decided maybe it was time to start trying I'm really excited and really hope Iam but then there's A part of me wondering if Iam truly ready and I don't want to be happy but yet sad when I find out that Iam .... I'm scared I know Iam prepared for one just hoping that I will be happy being pregnant and not regret it I don't want to feel this way but I can't help to think about it a lot sorry just needed to vent 😕