Is it depression?

Question

I'm 29 weeks along and I think I might be suffering from depression. I've had a fair share of ups and downs during the pregnancy, specially in the first trimester with hypermesis. I'm still throwing up daily but not as bad as the beginning. Second trimester was a lot better, still vomiting a lot but I had a little more energy and bounce. Now, I'm extremely fatigued, I want my space and I don't particularly want to speak to anyone, even my husband. I feel empty and purposeless. I feel like I've lost the will to live. I usually have nightmares about dying and wake up scared, last night same dream but I was ok with dying, I just wanted baby to be ok and make it out of me alive. I'm not having thoughts of killing myself but if I died I'd totally be happy to go. I'm not someone who gets down for long. If I feel unhappy I just shake of the feelings and reaffirm myself that only I have the power to affect my mood but I haven't been able to do that lately. It's like a permanent grey cloud hovering above me. I don't want to pump my body with medicine. I hardly take pain killers and being pregnant I usually will just hack the pain. I just don't know what to do. I wanted to put it into words hoping it'll make a difference. Sorry for the long post

Answer

Prenatal depression is actually more common than postpartum depression! What you're experiencing sounds like depression to me. You should make an appointment with a therapist and let your doctor know. I don't take most medicine either, I didn't take any of the heavy duty pain killers they gave me after my tonsillectomy and the ~~craziest thing I take is allergy medicine when it gets reeeeeally bad, but what you're experiencing is serious and medicine could really help you in this situation. there is medicine that is safe for pregnancy. You've gotta consider if it doesn't go away in your post partum period, you're going to have a lot more responsibilities that you'll need to be in your best shape as possible to handle. If you figure out a medicine that works for you ahead of that time you'll be that much more ready to take on those challenges rather than maybe deciding to take medicine then and having to adjust to that alongside new parenthood.

I'm just saying, I understand not being a super medicalized person because I totally am too, but this is a scenario where you really have to consider stepping out of your norm to take the best care of yourself and your family. 💗 if anything, a therapist can help A LOT even if you don't end up taking any medicine.

You're already doing great by being able to ID that this is not "normal" for you. Hugs!

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I'm the same way, and I have been diagnosed with depression. Go and talk to your dr about it and then get into see a therapist. Sometimes even though your pregnant some antidepressant are safe during pregnancy. I'm calling my Dr tomorrow to talk about getting back on mine.

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Please don't apologize for reaching out and explaining your feelings. There is nothing to apologize for. You're doing the right thing.
Even without having all of your information, I think it's safe to say that it does sound like depression. I urge you to speak with your doctor about this. Even if you do not want to go on medication, they can't make you go on it. They do however need to be aware of what you're going through, because there is always the chance that this could turn into PPD after you have your baby.
Asking for help or needing help does not make you a bad person or mother. Our bodies go through so many changes when we're pregnancy, both physically and hormonally that it is completely normal for this to happen. 
Good luck mama.

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Sounds like depression.. I went though it with my my first.. I got a councler and it helped me to be able to have someone to talk to.. Will keep you in my prayers

Is it depression?

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