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So I'm 16 turning 17 in a few months and I have this ex, first boyfriend first kiss gave him my virginty thought I was in love with him n shit. We dated for 9 months and we broke up about 2 and a half months ago and we weren't friends when we first met. As corny as it sounds when we first met it was like we had this connection, we'd always catch each other looking from across the room and shit. The cringyness of this post is making me sick btw 😂 and anyway I thought he was "the one" cos I'm young and stupid, and about 5 months into our relationship things started getting weird like he started making up excuses as to why he couldn't talk to me or see me and started hiding his phone from me. This lasted for about 3 months before I decided to take matters into my own hands and see wtf was going down. When we first started dating he gave me his fb password, but being the person I am I always thought it was wrong to invade someone's privacy like that so I never used it until this point. I was just stressed out and he was acting strange and I wanted to know what was happening I wanted to know if I was being played. Which I found out was the case. He had been chatting up and talking to other girls. Saying things like they have nice asses and they're good looking and calling them boo and sending x's. So anyway we broke up, for 2 days 😂😂😂 I honestly thought he had changed and realised how badly he had been treating me, cos it wasn't just the cheating that was happening, he'd continuously call me pathetic and crazy for thinking (well knowing actually hahah) that he was being unloyal. He also started crying and saying how much he fucked up and that he loved me so much and to give him another chance. So we got back together and everything was good, until he went on a holiday back to his home town to visit his mum and family (he moved to my home town with his dad and stepmum) and after he got back I found out in June that not only had he cheated on me, like actually hooked up with the girls, at a music festival in April before we broke up the first time he had hooked up with four girls in his hometown even after we had broken up and gotten back together and he promised he wouldn't do something like that again. So obviously I broke up with him. And we were on good terms and mates for a month or so cos I'm a pushover and forgive too easily till he told some people a secret I had told him and yeah he had been chatting shit so we stopped being mates. And recently at our school we have a cafe and he was taking orders, and as soon as I walked up to the counter ( I was on the verge of a panic attack btw 😂😂) he knew exactly what I was gonna order cos he remembered that I liked strawberry milkshakes and whenever we'd go out for lunch I'd order one. And he was nice to me, like wtf it would be some much easier to not like him if he was an ass. And anyway we've been talking friendly again for a few days now. And I still feel attached to him for some reason and it fucking frustrates me. Like he hurt me so bad and I'm still willing to forgive him so easily and I get all happy when he messages me n shit ( I'd never get back together with him btw cheating crosses a line) and ugh. I just don't know what to do and I feel so annoying cos I feel like I should be over it and I just keep talking about it to my mates. I'm so frustrated with myself. Any advice? Thoughts?
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