Weight loss help/advice/stories/motivation!?

Hello ladies, so I don't even know where to begin, I am so out of control I can't even begin to figure out how to lose all this weight! To be in a healthy weight range I need to loose at least 50lbs! Currently I am 5'10" and 215lbs, this is the MOST I have ever weighed. I don't even know how I allowed my self to get like this. The heaviest I've been before this and lost weight was 180lbs and I got down to 145lbs through basically a starvation diet, at the time I was in an abusive relationship so I would eat away my feelings essentially, then when I was in the process of breaking up with him I got extremely depressed and lost the 45lbs in 3 months. Now this time around I hope to go from 215 to 155, so 60lbs total to lose. I really need help, I need to lose this weight. I've been with a very loving and amazing man for 2 years and when I met him I was that little 145lb girl! He says he loves how I look and that it doesn't bother him that I've gained weight but I know it does! I've had a bad relationship with food all my life, I became a vegetarian at age 12 to cut calories and it all spiraled down hill from there, I began starving myself and was struggling with anorexia throughout highschool until I graduated and got with my abusive ex, when that happened something in me just snapped and I used food to cope and began binge eating which caused the weight gain, then when the depression hit I began struggling again with anorexia. Now I am the happiest in life I have ever been but I am again just out of control with food! Please help me ladies! I could use any/all help possible! Any advice, motivation, motivational pictures, success stories, anything is appreciated! I know when it comes down to it its all up to me to do it and lose the 60lbs but I just need some help!