Just need someone to listen to me.....

It's been nearly 10 months since I conceived my son, and now that he's here I still have a hard time grasping the idea of me being a parent to anyone. He has a hard time latching on for breastfeeding (I've talked to a lactation nurse at least 3 times with no improvement) which makes me feel like he just don't want me. When I try to feed him sometimes I get so frustrated with him because he won't eat from me and if he does he constantly moves around and it hurts...my bf gets upset with me when I try to tend to our son early in the morning and the poor little baby don't want to stop crying. I get told I'm being lazy because all I want to do is sit in bed and take care of my son. I'll do laundry but that's all I feel comfortable with for now (still healing and occasionally in pain). My baby is so beyond perfect, I love him so much and want to be the best mom I can be for him.