Depression?

So im pretty sure i have depression. There are days when i just cant deal with people or the world and just stay in my room. It happens more than i would like to admit. I work so i do get out.

Its days like today where i cant describe the feeling but all i want to do is sit in my room and cry and not talk to anyone. I have been having issues with my bf and im sure that i will have to be ending that relationship. I primarily stay with him so i will have to get my stuff and go back to my parents. Problem with that is my mom. She talks to me like im stupid and yells at me all the time. She got mad at me the other day when i had visited because she started talking to me and i didnt know what she was talking about so i told her i didnt know what she was saying. She automatically starts yelling at me saying i never listen when she talks. I heard and listened but i had no idea what she was talking about as i have never heard of the subject before. The tension is so high when im around her i just go hide in another room or avoid talking to her in general.

I just went through another one of these instances with her and am now hiding out in a room. She started yelling at me because i agreed with her. I feel like shit. My relationship with my bf of 5 years is going downhill so fast i feel like ive lost a chunk of my life and the closet person i had. I thought we were going to get married and at least attepmt to try to have a baby. I have fertility issues so that doesnt help. Yes ive talked to him trying to fix the problems but nothing changes and counseling is out the door because he wont go and i cant continue to feel second best to everyone else in his life. With my mom i feel like a child always being yelled at and hiding in a room like im in trouble. All i want to do is cry and lay in bed and just forget all this. I wish i were happy instead of just pretending all the time.