Hurt need to vent

Hey ladies I'm due 10/16 the father of my child told me a week ago that he's not ready to settle down he said he lost interest in me when I wouldn't get an abortion.. My feelings are so hurt I was very caution about everything I really don't understand where I went wrong not to mention he wished death on me when I give birth I don't want him to be there when I have him should I still put him in his name or mine? I'm so hurt right now I waited nine years to experience this all over again what should I do ladies😫