Need to vent (long post) 😢😩😒😧😧

Well I want to start off by saying if you have a rude response feel free to get cursed out 😂🙂😒.

Last year I left my daughter father due to him being a major ass when my Great Grandmother passed away, and shortly after I met a guy who was at the time grieving his father's death. In a way it made us closers in but then again it was possibly all of the emotions we were dealing with at the time.

Me and this guy was together 5 months before we decided to ttc a child together but no matter what we tried it just never happened, but as time passed his true colors began to show. He had kids from previous relationships which I was okay with until the late night phone calls started coming in, stupid reasons why he had to go to his kids mother house, and why they HAD to do family trips together. That's when I began to question him, but remind you when my daughter dad wanted me to join them on little outings he would get beyond pissed and tell me how it wasn't going to work because I was entertaining my baby father 😒. Eventually it got played out and we kind of called it quits and shorty after me and my daughter father got back together. When we got back together we weren't using protection at all, but one day me and my ex or what ever he wants to be called hooked up. To cut it short I continued to be with my kid father and shortly after I found out I was pregnant. In my heart I believe it's my daughter father's child but then again your mind is a dangerous thing and at times I start to wonder what if. Honestly since finding out I have not shared this with anyone but felt the need to get it off my chest