can't get over it

It's been 34 days since I found out my long awaited baby had stopped growing at 6weeks (supposed to be 11 weeks ) . Every day the pain gets worse. My  1st pregnancy and 1st loss. I am back to normal daily routine but everything makes me want to hide and cry. I still am getting positive pregnancy tests and that's not helping me. I feel so heart broken. And every day it gets worse. Every day it gets harder. What can I do? I don't want to feel this way. I wake up every night from pregnancy nightmares.