I don't really get on glow much anymore, but today I've been missing them bad. My two perfect babies I lost almost a year ago. I remember when I found out about their condition, and man. I was a wreck. Like I can remember how hard I cried in an empty room of the obgyn. They said they would move me out of the room so they could get the next patient in, after telling me my pregnancy was not normal and I can't continue. I still feel the pain the shook my whole body, it makes me feel sick. I was exposed to so much I wish I hadnt with my pregnancy. But even now, I can hardly think about how bad I felt. I soak in the good times and how incredible I felt knowing I had perfect life inside me. I am so happy to have been a mother, even if it was not for long.

It is infant loss awareness month, and I hope you ladies are healing, and I hope you have been able to celebrate the lives you've made. Our babies couldn't have been made more perfect, or more perfect for us! It will never be the same without them, but honestly they showed me a love I never knew I could give. I love them more than I love their daddy, and that's insane to think. And I'm proud to have created two perfect people with a perfect person.

I love and miss them, every day. And I hope all you mommies are healing.