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Recently life has been really good! I'm doing well in college, and I've had a lot of romantic interactions. I've had a few hookups and I didn't feel awful after like I've felt good, things are getting serious with a guy I really like but recently I've found myself feeling really down. I think it's the fact that although I've had a lot of sexual interactions I just still hate myself. I haven't felt good about myself and I haven't truly liked myself in years, I just don't know what to do or how to feel at the moment.