self harm

I used to cut myself several times a day. It was a pretty severe addiction and as a teenager I was placed on addiction medication made for people on drugs to get me to stop. I went three years clean and then relapsed about a year ago due to being in an abusive relationship that was just too much for me. Sometimes the feelings come back and it feels so unbearable. No one really gets that this was a serious addiction for me. No one really realizes that it's still a daily battle. Even if I've told people that, they always just seem to forget. It's such hell and I regret ever starting. Just looking for people to relate to.