Delivery esrly

Delivering my second baby at 35 weeks just like my first. 4 days from now I'll be holding her. I can't help but feel bad that I can't carry full term. Maybe I'm just being sad but I feel guilty.

My 8 year old son is healthy and happy and I am so proud of him. But it's crazy to think I'm doing this again.

As I lay here in hospital avoiding contractions dealing with Placental Previa on top of it I realized today that pregnancy for some is so easy and for some so complicated. Being on complicated side and wanting more children for our family I wonder if this is the last baby I will carry?

I promised myself not to depressed over the ultimate decision as my beautiful baby girl needs me to be happy. But I am still sad to think this is it for us.

Just needed to vent as I lay in hospital on bed rest