stop and regret

I gave up on breastfeeding bcs my baby didnt want to latch on my breasts and I had to pump my milk every 2 hour. I was okay with it until one day her nanny quit and I had to take care of her by my own (I'm a mother of 2). Sometimes I forgot to pump because of my hectic day so I quit breastfeeding. Now she got red dots all over her body, high fever and cough. I feel sad seeing my little angel sick. I wanted to give the best of me but I failed. Now I start pumping again eventho I only got a little bit of milk. Here's a pic of my milk that I pump just now. If you have the same experience, please let me now :)