freaking doctors🙄

A couple years ago I started having really bad pain in my wrists. I went skating and fell and landed on it and I think that's what caused it. Doctor told me it was just sore. Well I worked at a little pizza place as a teen and that involved cutting about 4000 pizzas and my hand just KILLED me. So I went back because it just kept getting worse and this time to a different doctor and he did x-rays, mris and he said he couldn't see anything wrong and gave me a cortisone shot in my wrist. He kept doing that every 3 months and then when it wore off it hurt SO much worse. 
So finally I learned that cortisone shots like eat away at your tendons so I stopped that. I went to ANOTHER doctor and explained everything to him and he sent me to an orthopedic surgeon. This guy put my hand under a live X-ray and injected dye into my wrist. He said if the dye leaks from one side of my wrist to the other that there was a rip or tare in the tendon. Sure enough I watched it leak to the other side on the live X-ray. He said that since the rip is SO tiny and also that my hand is so tiny that he wouldn't do surgery because he didn't want to risk permanently  crippling my hand. Okay, that's reasonable 😳 
So it literally took me 3 years and 4 doctors to find out what is wrong with my wrist and that I can't ever do anything about it. I'm just stuck with pain forever 🙄