Devastated

I found out I'm 8 weeks pregnant. I got pregnant and miscarried last year, which my boyfriend knows about. He never once expressed sympathy or care after it happened. In fact, he carried on a 6 month relationship with another man during and after it happened. This evening I told my boyfriend I'm pregnant and he told me he wants nothing to do with my kid. Even though we've been having unprotected sex for 3 years, he "can't figure out how I got pregnant" and just assumed I never would get pregnant. He's NEVER used birth control with me and it's never even been a part of conversation. Tonight he actually told me that I should get an abortion. When I told him that was out of the questions, he said he hopes the baby dies. We live together and I've been having a rough pregnancy with bad morning sickness and severe hormone fluctuations. I sat crying after the conversation and he's blatantly ignoring me and is sitting in our bedroom with loud music blaring right now even though he knows it bothers me and makes me have anxiety attacks. I feel so hopeless and wonder why I'm even alive at this point and what I did to deserve this. I've always craved motherhood but this not how I ever wanted to experience it. ***additonal info: I have my own home and he lives with me and pays rent. I have a great job, actually make more money than him so I'm not worried about being able to care for the baby. It's the emotional aspect that has me a wreck.***