soooo much pain.

 I need to vent because this period is horrible and I can talk about my periods here. My period is not that heavy(well according to me and how heavy it's been before)  but it is SO painful. My cramps are making me shake and shiver. I just sat on the toilet and cried just letting it pour out. I feel like I'm going to throw up and I just don't want to deal with this anymore. This is not okay. I wish there was a way to speed up a period and get it over with. I'd rather deal with a lot of pain for a short amount of time compared to a week of constant dull, aching, stomach twisting pains. I have endometriosis and it really is absolute hell. I have pain radiating down my legs and it feels like a demon is carving out my womb with a steak knife. Nothing is helping..not a heating pad nor a hot bath or midol. Everything just hurts. it hurts to move. I'm so done with this. Honestly if I was rich enough I would have embryos made and stored and have a hysterectomy and have someone else have my babies. That's how much I HATE my uterus. I just want the thing GONE. And it probably will be when I am older. I am the only female in my entire family that still has a uterus. everyone has had a hysterectomy because of endometriosis. And I hope that I never have daughters because my family's women are cursed with really shitty uteruses and I don't want to have a daughter that will deal with crap because it's seriously not okay. I'm tired and in pain and I needed to vent. Thank you.