...I'm going to go nuts

Hey ladies ,

Let me start off with my bf an I have never been able to have a normal sex life for the 4 years we been together.

It's always been painful for me no matter what I do. We tried lubes different positions oral first etc I went to my gyno for it and my ob and they told me to do the same thing relax

Try lubes toys etc.

I have I just wanna give up it sucks I never been able to have a normal sex life with my boyfriend I'm 23 and he's 28. We have a 2 month old son. I'm about to call my gyno agian Monday and see what she says about it cause I called 2 Years ago when it started to hurt really bad. It got so bad we would have sex 3xs a week than it went to 2 than 1 than none. Than back up to 2. Now it's 3xs week with other things than sex

I'll go down on him I'll do anal

I'll do things so he can get off I get its frustrating. And stressful for a guy being they need to get off.. he told me were not getting engaged or having another baby anything until i change and I'm able to give him 3-4xs a wk. Which is almost like a threat in a way I feel like... I did shit so he could get of the other night than last night when I was feeding the baby he kept trying to feel up on me than a few mins ago he goes I wanna have sex tomorrow and I want u to go down on me tonight (he does return the favor) but it's almost like dude let me relax and not be so sore a little I get up with the baby 5 - 6 nights a week... I'm tired I'm not on birth control cause it got stolen so I had to wait to get my script so now I gotta wait until my period comes agian.

It's just annoying in a way that I'm not good enough to marry cause I can't have sex and it's not like he well be like oh it's ok babe u can go gown on me or give me a hand job no he'll throw a fit and etc like he'll give me attitude and make me feel horrible about it when really really not my fault...

Please no bashing

I could use some positive advice