Intro - so glad I found this...

My name is Danielle, my husband and I have an amazing 2 year old son and an angel son. On Dec 8th last year I gave birth to our angel at 31 weeks and 4 days.  I had felt him moving the night before and when I woke up in the morning nothing.  I didn't think much of it I thought maybe since I was getting bigger he didnt have as much room to move to around. Around lunch I called my dr office and begged them to let me come in for a check.  They told me to drink some juice and to do kick counts.  I didn't want to but I did and still nothing.  I knew it was bad and something was wrong.  I went in and they couldn't find the heart beat.  I was sent to the hospital and induced.  Avery James was born the next morning at 3:44am, he was 4 pounds and 8 ounces, 18 inches long.  I still can't stop thinking about how big he was. He was beautiful and so perfect.  The doctor said that I had a placental abruption and that the cord wasn't wrapped around his neck but that was coiled like a telephone cord.  They put on BC and told was to wait 9-12 months before trying again.  And since I had one successful birth then this shouldn't happen again.   I went off the pill in April to get it out of my system and haven't used protection since.  We have been actively trying for the last 4 months.  That said we still aren't pregnant.  I know that isn't that long but I got pregnant so quickly the last two times and being off BC for 7 months I just figured it would happen quickly again.  I feel like I am going crazy, I want to be pregnant again so bad and give my sons a sibling.  We are quickly coming up on his "birthday" and I knew this going to be hard but I didn't know it was going to be like this.  Not to mention our 4 year anniversary is this coming week which also marks a year to the last time I heard Avery's heartbeat and saw him swimming around at my 28th week ultrasound.  Sorry for the long post but I know there are other women and families out there that have been there and I am just looking for some feedback and insight.  AJG❤️