BFN AF due tomorrow.

This is so frustrating! I've had 2 early miscarriages in the past year and now we are ttc again. af is due tomorrow and I got a bfn. I had spotting at 9 dpo, which I have never had before. The last time I got pregnant the test was positive 4 days before af was due. I feel like I'm out this month. It's so hard to relax and not dwell on it, especially with this new symptom of possible implantation bleeding. If that what it was would I have a bfp by now? I can't handle this waiting game!