Seeking experience of others after late miscarriage

I had a miscarriage at 16.5 weeks on Aug. 24 after my water broke too soon. I delivered my baby girl but had to have  a D & C to remove the placenta. It was and still is horrible. I want to move on, but it seems my body will not recover. I still have not had a period. I felt hopeful when I had three days of light spotting Oct.23-25 that it was possibly a period and even thought I ovulated Nov 5 when I tested positive for LH surge. The app originally said AF due Nov. 17, but it never came. I had very light pink/brown spotting Nov. 12-14. I was hoping it was implantation, but now I'm wondering if that was supposed to be a period. I have had very faint lines on sensitive pregnancy tests earlier this week, but today's was negative. My last blood test showed hcg level of 17 Oct. 25. Does anyone have experience with late miscarriage and getting back to normal? Does anyone have any advice on how to live life without obsessing over getting pregnant with a rainbow baby? If so, please share.