Bad Day - Cycle Day 49 - ADVICE PLEASE

I'm having a really hard time coping with not getting pregnant within the first year of trying. Ever since I stopped bc this past year I've been really irregular. My cycles go from 30-75 days! Now I'm on cycle day 49 and no signs of anything happening. I've been having mild cramps for the last two weeks or so. Took a test the other day and it was negative 😔. My husband keeps telling me that God will make it happen when it is the right now. I have a hard time believing that. Looking for some advice or kind words to help me along. Thanks.