Just a stressed out rant

So we've been TTC a few months, but my husband doesn't know because he said he didn't want to know when I decided to start ttc because he wants to be surprised and not have to stress over it. But that's kind of difficult because he hardly ever has a sex drive, we only have sex a few times a month and it's random. So it's hard when I can't tell him hey we should have sex everyday this week while I'm fertile. I mean I do what I can to try to get him in the mood at the right time but I never know. This post doesn't really have a point and I'm not sure anyone can relate, I just needed to put my feelings into words somewhere lol.