period after d&c

I just Had a d&c on nov 7th. I lost my daughter at 13 weeks. I've stopped bleeding and everything but I haven't gotten a period yet. How long does that take? I thought at first I wouldn't want to try again but now I don't think I can not try. I'm obsessed with being pregnant. But it kills me to think about having a different baby, when I wanted that baby girl so bad 😭. I have a son and I love him so much but I've always wanted that bond with a little girl. A part of me is scared to death if I do get pregnant again, it will be a boy...and of course any baby is a gift, but I think I will be even more crushed. Please don't judge me for saying that. I'm just hurting still and so sad and I miss my baby girl. 😞