Just a little vent and some ptsd i've been trying to overcome.

My ex boyfriend was extremely abusive, not completely physically, but mostly mentally. He had forced me to have sex with him a couple of times and it really upset me because he was always wanting sex and I was tired of it. Last night I had horrible nightmares, where he'd show up in the middle of the night and come in my room (which he's done) and then take my covers off and harass me. The second dream I had was he showed up in the middle of the night and raped me. My boyfriend now understands what my ex did and how he treated me and my boyfriend now lives with me, but he works graveyards. I always get extremely scared when he leaves me because I feel like my ex will come and harass me. I had to take today off because my nightmares last night caused me so much anxiety to the point I couldn't fall back to sleep for hours because my heart was beating so bad.