Vent session...

So I just need some advice I tried talking to friends and I just feel so lost and lonely.. I have been with my boyfriend on and off we have a 4 year old boy who is amazing. Now the boyfriend which idk to call him that cause we don't live together I kicked him out like 6 months ago since he needs a lot of work and through out the years he has gotten better and even now since I kicked him out he has been sticking with his job and getting his life together. I also wanted to get myself comfortable to do things alone and with my son because i relayed on his companionship to much. Which I have succeeded but now that I reached my goal and see that I don't need a relationship to be happy I miss it. I want to keep fighting for us cause I do love him but I miss having a fun and loving relationship where i can be myself and laugh and not have to walk on glass every time we have a conversation. I miss just having a best friend. My son is my world and I do everything and anything for him and I don't really feel right talking about how I feel cause I don't want people to say "well you have your son you shouldn't be worried about relationships " I tend to keep a lot in about how I feel and everything because I know everyone has problems but it seems like this is a good support system. And with full time school, full time work, and full time Mami means no social life.

Thanks for listening.