induction for a vbac?

Bi
I've always heard that you are not supposed to be induced if you are vbacing. Today at my 38 week appointment the doctor checked me and I'm not dialated at all. I asked what was going to happen if I went over. She said they would wait until 41 weeks and then do an ultrasound to check his size and then induce me at 42 weeks. I do not feel comfortable being induced. I would rather have a csection again. The risk is too high. Esp since we want more kids. Idk ladies I am feeling so defeated today. I know you can go from no dilation at all to full on labor in a day but I can't help but feel so discouraged! I wanted the whole experience. I want to hold him after he's born and you just can't do that with a csection. Wah! I am such a baby 😭