Venting and maybe advice

TW: Sexual abuse, emotional abuse, relationship abuse

Hey guys! So this is completely unrelated to be woc, but this is the group I trust the most to talk about this.

I can't remember if I've posted anything about this before, but about two years ago I was sexually abused by a (now ex) boyfriend. He would insist on not putting a condom on for the first few strokes even though I constantly told him how uncomfortable it made me (I eventually gave up). He also had sex with me under blankets with friends in the room without my consent. I didn't say yes or no, but I was clearly not ok. He was also (I believe) emotionally abusive by blaming and getting mad at me for self harming and only seeing me to fuck.

This has given me PTSD and made my anxiety so much worse. Even knowing I was in the same building at the same time made me anxious. A friend of mine suggested confronting him (I don't think he knew all this stuff was wrong) and I'm starting to consider it.

Ps. Sorry for the long post, just had to get it all off my chest.

Pps. The guy that did this was a bland-looking white boy so now white boys with similar brown hair give me anxiety attacks???