breastfeeding & weight loss = big fat lie! 😩 I can't be the only one?!??!

I weigh the same as I did upon leaving hospital when my son was born 5, YES 5 months ago. I know it's not a race etc, but I was so body conscious before pregnancy having spent years being overweight and finally getting slim, fit & healthy. I absolutely hate the way I look right now. I love that I was able to make a human being, especially after 10 years of trying and thinking I would never be a Mum, but selfishly or not, I detest what it has done to my body ( my only coping mechanism for the nausea early on was eating ). 

I hate looking in the mirror and I hate my fiancé looking at me undressed - right back to the mindset I was in when I was overweight. 

I really thought that breastfeeding would help me drop at least some of the weight, but it's done nothing at all.